This is really happening. I still have to pinch myself from time to time to believe it. We are about to start a new chapter in our journey...a chapter we never thought we would be able to open. These are waters that we have never forged. This is the promise that we've been standing on for more than 4 years now. It is unfolding before our eyes and I can't help but be a little tearful every time I think about it.
Back in August, I was at the lowest point of our journey. I had experienced lows before, don't get me wrong. And, I've been pretty transparent during those times. But, I've never just really felt this broken. I think God wanted this. Not that He wants us to break, but sometimes I think it's a NEED. I think He needs to break OUR will, so we have nothing left to cling to but His. Kind of like disciplining a child..and that's what we are. We are His children. That's pretty simple...yet so profound. We are HIS. Imagine the love you have for your children...you think that nobody can love them like you do, right? I know the love I have for my angel baby. But, we are all wrong...because He loves us even more...and he loves our children even more.
After all, it was He that sent His only Son to die for all of us over 2000 years ago. Remember? Could you do that? No way. I know I couldn't.
He, being our loving Father wants to bless us and give us the desires of our hearts. And, I believe with all of my heart that He is blessing us with the ability to receive our gift (or gifts ) that he has for us.
We are less than $2000 away from being able to pay for IVF.
We are almost there. In fact, we are close enough that we are committing to start this month and have our embryo transfer in December.
Praise the Lord! Give thanks to the Lord for He is Good. His love endures FOREVER. Psalm 106:1
<3 Lori
